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...everything is so much sexier on a Mac.
yep.
thats all i have to say.

i wont always love and then hate.
I wont always live and then seem dead.
i wont always give and then take.
one close friend said to me one day that hurting people hurt people.
heck i hurt people.
why do my ideals spend their nights mocking me?
why do i always seem helpless? lost in the same problems of 'ages ago'.



one thing is for sure, that my intentions are clear.
my past can either destroy me or better me.
my life cant be a sick cylce any longer, or a pathethic rhetoric.
it seems that if a book was to be written about me all that would be needed to be done was for someone to draw a simple circle.
its not like i ever wanted it to be this way. i wish to lay down everything, i wish to let go, to bow down, to give, to love.
sometimes i feel like the rich young ruler that Jesus meets in Mark ten. its like Jesus has asked me whether i want to choose him or me. i stand staring to the ground, slowly turning my back to face everything i ever was, losing grip of what i need to be.
this is my life, am i who i want to be?


thank God for the beauty of grace, and the glory of hope.
mark ten isnt finished for me yet.