Thursday, August 31, 2006 

the smell of pubs and magazines

well, yesterday i went across the city-side, enthusiastically starting my new job.... well for the first three hours. On the weekend i scored a new job, with beat magazine. Ever heard of it? Yeah, its like a real big free street based mag, with heaps of rad stuff in it. anyway, for me to do this, deliver that is, i have to get up at a wonderful 3:45 in the morning, to get to richmond by 4:20 to pick up 2100 papers to deliver to all the western suburbs. Do you think im crazy? Well its not all that bad.
the pay is good, its just that the first few rounds of doing it will be terrible, due to me not knowing where any of the places that i have to deliver too. that is exactly what happened this first run. I got so frustrated, cause i had no idea where these darn places were.
One place, i got terribly flustered because i had to lug 60 of these magazines over like a kilometre. This was because the traffic was peak hour cause i got there so late.
I just wanted to talk to someone, cause i hadnt spoken to anyone that whole day. I sat there, on the papers, looking up at the sky, wondering if anyone would call. Someone tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around and it was God. He asked if i would walk with him, to have a chat. I gratefully shook his hand and gave him a big nod. We talked all the way to the car, then he asked if he could travel with me, i of course said yes.
We spoke about sunsets and slurpies and how he made all the stars just to dazzle us. we cruised to the sounds of underoath, bobbing our heads with the windows down. We took turns with who would take the papers into the shops. Sometimes i had to drag him out of the pubs because he wanted to talk to the alcoholics.
He is a great guy... do you know him? He told me we didnt speak enough. He told me i put too much dependence on my friends and my things. He cut right to the core. Tears were shed, a red tissue was exchanged from God to me to wipe them away. I told him i would try to put my trust more in him, because now im starting to learn how much he really loves me.
God met me where i was at, with papercuts and blisters; with the smell of pubs and magazines.

Monday, August 28, 2006 

ø

Underøath + me = happy.

underoath is definitely the band of 2006 for me.
cheers.

Saturday, August 26, 2006 

love.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 

after.

i get this feeling sometimes that after the world ends, when God destroys all our buildings and all our flags, we will wish we had seen everybody as equal, that we had eaten dinner with prostitutes, held them in our arms, opened up spare rooms for them and loved them and learned from them. i was just a stupid child in the flow, you know; i didnt know any of these things. i didnt know that it didnt matter what a person looked like, how much money they made or whether or not they were cool. I didnt know that cool was a myth and that one person was just as beautiful and meaningful as another. Not all of us are as smart as aliens, you know. Not all of us run around naked like adam and eve. You can hardly fault me for this stuff can you? Like i said, it felt important to climb the social ladder, it felt important to defend our indentities; it felt as though we were saving our own lives.
- donald miller

Monday, August 21, 2006 

dear annie.

Gods funny in that he takes interest in the seemingly worthlessness of human kind. Listening to the whiny voice of Chris Carrabba, of dashboard confessional, makes me think, 'how does God put up with this?'
how does he put up with paris hilton? how does he put up with self-centered political leaders whos heads are too big for the houses they live in?
God must be the definition of patience.
How does he put up with me hey? Im such a rollercoaster of emotion and alliance. The morning sun makes me want to live in the desert, with John the baptist, ranting for a life of increase. Then by sunset i have allegianced myself with the man inside me, receiving thunderous applause, bowing to myself for the beauty of my selfishness.
i know i havent been a great friend, and i dont really know what you think of me. Maybe we can wander down a pier, dangle our feet over the edge, and wonder out loud the mysteries of our company.
well ts.
yourfriendly dave

Saturday, August 19, 2006 

you and me.

i want to keep walking away from the person i was a moment ago, because a mind was made to figure things out, not to read the same page recurrently.
- donald miller.

Thursday, August 17, 2006 

a little prayer for a little less sleep.

hey there!
well you are all probably wondering, what happened to the countdown!? well i actually lost the order of the songs. I wrote it on two sheets of paper and now they have gone missing! i slaved hours over the order, cause it took along time to work it just right. thus i havent had anytime to be able to do it agian. I will continue it very soon.
To the point of this post. I have wanted to share this with the world for a long time. this is how the story goes.
I go to thailand alot. ill be going again at the end of the year. When i go there, i visit a little rural church in a province called Mahasarakham, which is about 8 hours drive north east of bangkok and 3 hours drive west of cambodia. The church is pastored by a beautiful couple named hannah and nehimi. they are like my brother and sister. They call me nongchai, which means little brother in thai.
Hannah can speak near-fluent english, whereas nehimi cant at all. My thai gets good practice whenever i speak to nehimi. Last year when i was speaking to hannah, she told me that she cant have any more children, as something happened when daniel, their son, was born. I told her that i would pray that she would have another child, as they desperately wanted one.
i visited thailand over the christmas break and came back on the 8th of January. Since then, hannah and i correspond via email. One night, i was restless and couldnt get to sleep. I was praying for hannah and nehimi at the time. I thought that i should send a quick email to hannah, telling her what was on my mind. So on the 9th of July at a quarter to one, i sent the following email to her:

hello Hannahi wonder how are you? I cannot sleep so i email to you. I pray you now. How is everything. How is nehimee and daneil? how is church? I pray that u can have more children hananh. I know that God wnats to give you more. i am now on holidays. Im studying and learning many things. thankyou for your prayers, they always support me.
talk to you soon
nongchai dave

then, on the 28th of July, at 12:08pm, hannah sent the following response:

Hi Nong chai, Hope everythings went well with you?
I just wonder that because your praying so now i have got two months pegnate. So surprise us. I never expect that, so now God give to us one more baby. Nehamee so happy about this. Everybody are fine. We are praying for you and miss you alot.

Love
Hannah